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23-year old wife & new mom blogging away in Kentucky!

May 12, 2012
by Christine
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Mother’s Day 2012 (Mine came a day early.)

Mother's Day present from Noah!

My Mother’s Day officially started when I picked Noah up from daycare (or “school” as Robbie and I like to call it) on Friday. I don’t know why, but it never occurred to me that they might make Mother’s Day gifts with the kids. I don’t usually pick Noah up in the afternoon, but Robbie hurt his back and was prescribed a muscle relaxer that day so he couldn’t drive. It was a great surprise when the teacher handed me Noah’s gift. My first Mother’s Day gift from Noah. :’)

My Mother's Day present from Robbie!

Robbie has never had the ability to hang on to a gift for long. I’ve received most of my gifts before their associated holiday.

Lately I’ve been dropping major hints that I’d like to get some more jewelry. I have a few nice pieces of jewelry that have a lot of sentimental value because they’ve been given to me at special times during my life.

I have a diamond bracelet that my mom gave to me for my 18th birthday. She wanted me to have my first piece of “grown up” jewelry.

My engagement ring is exactly what I told Robbie I wanted and he had the date of our first date engraved on the inside of the band.

My wedding ring used to be my Mema’s. Grandaddy gave her a gold wedding band and then added diamond ring guards for an anniversary some time later. When I was a child I asked her if I could have her ring one day, and she remembered that and offered it to me when I got engaged.

When I got pregnant for the first time, Mema gave me a diamond necklace of hers so that I would always associate it with that happy time.

I love wearing these pieces and thinking about the meaning behind them. I think about passing them down to my children one day and I hope that they value the memories that the jewelry represents in the same way that I do. I want to continue to accumulate pieces that I can pass down. And obviously the jewelry itself isn’t half bad either.

Other than dropping hints about wanting new jewelry, I wasn’t specific about what I wanted. I really wanted something that would represent Noah and I thought having something with his birthstone in it would be perfect. At the same time I was curious to see what Robbie would pick out for me on his own.

Mother's Day 2012

Needless to say, he did an amazing job. That is indeed Noah’s birthstone, an amethyst.

Mother’s Day may not officially begin until tomorrow…but it’s already been great for me.

May 10, 2012
by Christine
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Extended Breastfeeding and @iamnotthebabysitter

I first came across I am not the Babysitter‘s (also known as Jamie Lynne) blog when she was featured on BlogHer in April. Jamie Lynne is a staunch breastfeeding advocate, but her blog post was titled, “10 Things Breastfeeding Advocates Need To Stop Saying”. I was immediately endeared to her because of this post.

While I was pregnant with Noah I did a lot of reading about Breastfeeding vs. Formula Feeding. I’d never given the debate any thought and had no strong opinions either way. During my research I began to feel that breastmilk was clearly the healthiest option and the added benefits of emotional bonding and cost savings helped me decide that I wanted to try to nurse exclusively.

However, there was one thing I didn’t like about breastfeeding and that was the militant attitude I encountered from many of its advocates. Their overzealous posturing almost made me want to choose formula out of spite.

Something that a lot of these “breastfeeding militants” also advocated was Extended Breastfeeding, which is continuing to breastfeed past one year. The thought of extended breastfeeding seemed strange to me, and most of the people I discussed it with in real life tended to agree. Some of the most common things that were said were: Why would you breastfeed your child once they’ve started solid foods? Or If they’re old enough to ask for it, they don’t need it.

It seemed like the idea of nursing a helpless infant was natural and acceptable, but once that infant became a more independent and self sufficient toddler then nursing became gross and unnecessary. But why?

I think the controversy around extended breastfeeding boils down to two issues. The first is that in Western society we value independence and self sufficiency. We want our children to be confident and we want them to stand on their own two feet as soon as possible. A child seems weak if they’re too dependent on their parents, and relying on Mom for nursing once the child no longer needs breastmilk as a sole source of nutrition is seen as coddling. Is extended breastfeeding indulgent? Will it make a child more vulnerable or reliant than they should be? That I’m not so sure of.

The second issue is the sense of entitlement people feel they have in dictating how others raise their children. We all feel like we know what’s best for our children and by extension we sometimes feel like we know what’s best for other people’s children too. That simply isn’t true, but some of us lose sight of that sometimes. I don’t feel like it can be proven that extended breastfeeding has any sort of negative impact on a child, so why should anyone care if that’s what a mother chooses to do? It’s her body, it’s her child, and ultimately it’s her choice.

Bringing it back to Jamie Lynne…

Right now she is on the cover of Time Magazine breastfeeding her 3-year-old son under the title, “Are You Mom Enough?” The article itself is about attachment parenting, but I think it’s been lost beneath the stir caused by the sight of Jamie Lynne boldly and unapologetically nursing her toddler.

If I was unsure of where I stood on extended breastfeeding before, then I’m sure about where I stand now. It’s absurd to me that anyone would take issue with Jamie Lynne’s cover. I see a mother nursing her child and to me it’s beautiful. I know that most people see the image to be inflammatory and nothing more than cheap shock value. I think it’s bold. Does a mother have to be demure and shy about nursing her child to be deemed appropriate? Perhaps I’ve been indoctrinated by my own experience now that I’m a nursing mother. Maybe I see some of myself in Jamie Lynne. Maybe I’ll become an extended breastfeeding mother one day and I resent the idea that I should be subtle about it. I don’t know.

What I do know is that I feel like Jamie Lynne is a very brave woman and I applaud her for her courage to open herself up to criticism by speaking out about her belief in extended breastfeeding. While I hate that she may endure some harsh flack for her cover, I am grateful that she has put the image out there for all of us to consider. In my case, I considered what I was seeing and I decided it wasn’t so bad. Hopefully others will feel the same way or will at least evaluate the reasons why they don’t.

May 7, 2012
by Christine
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Mold

Noah has been congested since he started going to daycare seven weeks ago. His pediatrician has assured us multiple times that some babies simply suffer from congestion and that as long as he’s eating normally and not struggling to breathe then he’s fine.

We’ve been using a cool mist humidifier and suctioning his nose multiple times a day, but the congestion never goes away. A week and a half ago Robbie randomly decided to search Google to see if he could find more information on what causes congestion in babies and he found one explanation that we hadn’t thought of: mold.

He bought several at-home test kits from Lowes and set them in both bathrooms, Noah’s room and the kitchen. Every test produced mold growth. Grrrreat.

It’s $4o per kit to send them off for testing to see what type of mold has grown on them. I’ve sought out quotes from multiple companies that perform mold inspections and assessments and right now the lowest price is $375. From what information I’ve found on Google it seems like mold can be found in most structures and that it doesn’t always mean you have an air quality problem. Obviously if you find conditions in your home that contribute to the growth of mold (poor ventilation, problems with leaky plumbing, moisture in the crawl space/basement) then you should be more concerned.

We’ve had our crawl space looked at twice by a home inspector and once by my step-dad (who works for Terminex and is familiar with inspecting homes) and each time we’ve been told that our crawl space looks great and it’s completely dry. We don’t have windows in either bathroom, so ventilation is an issue there. We haven’t found any visible mold growth as of yet, but that doesn’t mean it isn’t there.

I know that mold remediation is terribly expensive and I dread the thought of us requiring that sort of thing, but if mold is the reason that Noah stays congested then obviously we need to do something about it. But is that the reason? Do we really have a mold problem?

I guess I’ll never know unless I have a professional come and check it out. Oh, the glamorous life of a home owner.

May 6, 2012
by Christine
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Noah’s STTN and (Possibly) Moving to His Own Room

Noah has started sleeping through the night (or “STTN” in the parenting blog world). I’ve been reluctant to say anything because I’m afraid I’ll jinx it. He started sleeping for longer intervals several weeks ago, sometimes staying down for six hours at a time! I’ve been relishing the additional sleep, but unfortunately it doesn’t come without a dilemma. Although Noah has been going without a feeding (or two), I still need to wake up and pump. The problem is…I haven’t been. I’m playing a dangerous game with my milk supply and I know it.

I previously relied on Noah to wake me up to feed him, so when he didn’t one night I figured it was a fluke. Despite being engorged, I was happy to get the extra sleep. When it happened again the next night, I felt like I’d gotten away with something for a second time but I knew  I couldn’t keep it up without risking a decrease in my supply.

On the third night I told myself that I’d set an alarm and only allow myself to sleep for four hours and then I’d wake up and pump. But when that alarm went off in the middle of the night and Noah continued to sleep peacefully in his bassinet, my sleep altered brain couldn’t help but tell me to turn off the alarm and go back to sleep. So I did. And I have for several nights in a row now.

I can’t keep doing this and I know it. To tell the truth, I hate pumping. It’s tedious and inconvenient, but it’s necessary in keeping up my milk supply. I’ve been petulantly avoiding it and clinging to the extra sleep as if the need to pump will just magically go away, but it won’t. I have to do it. I have to do it. Ugh.

Speaking of Noah’s sleep…

I’ve been telling myself that I would transition Noah to his crib (and by extension his own room) when he turned 3 months old. For some reason that seemed like an “old enough” age in my mind. Well, he’s going to be 3-months old in 3 days and I’m not sure if I’m ready!

Robbie bought an awesome baby monitor to prepare for the transition. We’ve set it up beside his bassinet and used it several times to get the hang of it. The sound is great. I feel like I’ll wake up just as easily if I hear him making noise on the monitor as I do when he stirs in the bassinet beside our bed. The video quality, especially the night vision, is also pretty good, but it’s hard for me to think about not being able to open my eyes and look over at him to see his chest rise and fall a mere foot away.

I do feel like we need to transition Noah to his own bed sooner rather than later to avoid a more difficult time with it as he gets older. I know that a lot of babies sleep in their own room from the day they come home. It’s not a matter of him being ready to move on, it’s more about me being ready to let him go. But I’ve got to suck it up and get over it. It’ll be easier on him if we go ahead and do it now.

But seeing as how he won’t technically be 3-months old until Wednesday then I’ll just pull a Scarlett O’Hara. I won’t think about it any more today. I’ll think about it tomorrow.

May 4, 2012
by Christine
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Noah’s First Trip to the ER

Robbie picked up Noah from daycare last Friday (4/27/12), as he usually does. Noah was acting normally. When they got home, Robbie noticed that Noah had spit up sometime during the trip. He took him inside, cleaned him up, and put him in his swing momentarily to let the dogs outside.

When he came back for him, Robbie found that Noah had thrown up. Not spit up, but totally thrown up. Robbie cleaned him up again and then they both settled into the recliner in the living room. Noah fell asleep on Robbie’s chest.

When I came home from work, Robbie told me about both incidents. I set my things down and went to pick Noah up. As soon as I turned him toward me, Noah threw up again. No fussing, no projecting, no other nuances whatsoever. Just thin, milky liquid that poured from his mouth and fell like a waterfall all over him, me, and the floor.

We took him to his room and as Robbie cleaned him up for the third time, I called daycare to see if he’d been acting differently that day and to ask if any other kids had gotten sick. I spoke to one of the managers and she said that Noah was fine all day and that nobody else had been sick.

This was the first time we’ve dealt with a sick baby. Neither one of us knew how serious the situation was. Noah was acting totally normal despite the vomiting, so we didn’t really know how concerned we should be. We both were aware that there could be a risk of dehydration if he lost too much fluid, but we didn’t know how much fluid he could lose before that happened.

I’d bought a Vicks Rectal Thermometer in preparation for the inevitable time when Noah became ill. Robbie didn’t like the idea of taking Noah’s temperature rectally (but who does likes the idea of taking a rectal temperature?), so I took his temperature via armpit. After adding a degree per the instructions, Noah’s temperature read 97.6. That seemed low to me, so I went ahead and took his temperature rectally (making sure to use plenty of petroleum jelly!). The temperature read the same.

Something just didn’t seem right, so we cleaned the thermometer and Robbie used it to take his own temperature via armpit. The thermometer read 96.something. Something definitely wasn’t right, but we didn’t have another thermometer. (I really need to pick one up.) Despite the issue with the thermometer, Noah didn’t feel the slightest bit warm so we weren’t concerned about him having a fever. We were just trying to take his temperature because we were at a loss of what else to do.

I called the after hours line for our pediatricians office. After telling the on-call nurse what was happening, she suggested that we go ahead and take him to an immediate care center to be seen. She said for a baby his age they recommend having a doctor check them out if the baby has thrown up three or more times in 24 hours. Robbie was hesitant about rushing off to the immediate care center. He thought that Noah was fine and that he probably had a minor stomach bug. A part of me felt the same way because Noah was otherwise acting normally, but the Worry Wart inside of me just wouldn’t relax unless I had him seen.

I took my time putting him in his car seat while I fretted over whether or not a trip to the Immediate Care was really warranted. As if he were trying to convince me, Noah threw up again. That was enough to get both me and Robbie out the door.

We had reservations to a private opening of a new Longhorn Steakhouse location that night, but with everything going on we knew we weren’t going to make it. We tried calling everybody that we know to see if somebody could take the reservation for us, but unfortunately nobody could make it at such short notice. I called and canceled the reservation while we were in the car.

The closest Immediate Care is only a few minutes away so we got there quickly. While I was filling out the necessary paperwork, Noah threw up in the waiting room. It got all over him, his carseat, and a chair. That was no fun to deal with.

We were taken back quickly and only waited a few minutes for the doctor. When he came in, the first thing he said was that in the future we should take Noah to an immediate care about 20 minutes away because they have a pediatrician on staff. A part of me wondered if we should just go ahead and go there, but I’d already paid our co-pay and we were already in front of the doctor. He seemed like he was trying to refresh his memory on how to exam an infant because as he looked Noah over he would explain what he was doing as if he were going down a checklist. He’d occasionally pause and seem to think about what he was doing or saying and then he’d continue on, muttering affirmations to himself.

When he was done examining Noah, the doctor basically said the same thing that we already knew/felt. He confirmed that Noah didn’t have a fever (his temperature was 98.6), his abdomen was soft, his lungs were clear, he had good bowel sounds, his ears, nose, throat, and eyes looked fine. He wasn’t fussy and didn’t seem distressed. The doctor concluded that he probably had a minor stomach virus. He told us that we should monitor Noah’s fluids and urine output and if he couldn’t keep down breast milk or Pedialyte then we should take him to the hospital because he could become dehydrated. He said that I could try nursing him, but to only give him a little bit to be easy on his stomach.

I think Robbie and I both felt a mixture of relief that nothing major was wrong and regret because we both felt like we were overreacting. Robbie’s mind was totally put at ease at this point, but I couldn’t shake my worry.  We left the Immediate Care, stopped at the store to get some Pedialyte, then came home. I decided to try to nurse him before we gave him any Pedialyte. He latched on and ate for a couple of minutes, but he was sleepy and didn’t seem very interested in continuing. It was only about 10 minutes before he threw up again.

After cleaning him up, Robbie put 2oz of Pedialyte in a bottle and I tried giving it to him. It was the first time Noah’d had anything other than milk and a little bit of formula and he did not like it! We tried two different flavors and he refused to drink either one. Robbie ended up giving him about 4 teaspoons with a syringe because that was the only way to get it down.

I realized that I didn’t ask the doctor how long Noah could go without keeping fluids down before becoming dehydrated. Since he was still throwing up, I decided to call the after hours line for our pediatrician again. I spoke with a different nurse this time and she surprised me by saying that we should go ahead and take Noah to the children’s hospital. She said that because of his age and the amount of times that he’d thrown up, the Pedialyte wouldn’t re-hydrate him.

If I felt a little bit conflicted about taking Noah to the Immediate Care, I felt very conflicted about taking him to the hospital. I knew that Robbie would think the suggestion was ridiculous. My common sense was telling me that Noah was fine, but the alarmist inside of me was saying that I shouldn’t question what the nurse was telling me. After all, she’s the expert and I’m not. I was afraid of disregarding her directions only to have Noah become severely dehydrated and not get help in time, all of which would be my fault.

I put the nurse on speaker phone so she could repeat herself for Robbie’s sake. At this point he’d been dealing with my excessive fretting for several hours and he had no interest in debating or arguing with me. He simply resigned himself to go along with whatever I felt like we should do. I was incredibly torn. On the one hand I felt like Noah was fine and I knew that we didn’t have $250 just lying around waiting to be spent on a hospital co-pay. On the other hand I was afraid of my own ignorance and I didn’t want to be dismissive of what the nurse was telling me, only to pay for it with my baby’s health and possibly his life. (I know, so dramatic.)

I gave in to my fear and reluctantly decided to drag everyone downtown to the hospital. We drove in silence. I sat in the back seat with Noah and my guilt. For the entire ride I was a breath away from calling everything off and telling Robbie to turn around and go home. I felt ridiculous. I felt stupid. Noah was fine and I knew it, but I couldn’t master my fear of the worst-case-scenario.

It was past Noah’s bedtime by the time we got to the ER. He slept during the car ride and he continued to sleep after we brought him inside. The waiting room held a lot of people, but it wasn’t full. Robbie sat down with Noah while I gave our information to the registration desk. They called us back pretty quickly to get his weight and a summary of what was wrong. The nurse that helped us at this point said she thought he could be swallowing mucus since he was so congested, which was causing him to throw up. She said they might use a machine to fully suction his nasal passage and that may help him. He received a red hospital bracelet and we were sent to a different hallway to take care of billing and insurance. We only spent a few minutes here and then we were sent back to the waiting room until Noah was called.

Robbie held Noah and walked him around the waiting room and through the adjacent halls to try to keep him away from the coughing and sniffling that surrounded us. Noah had woken up and he was looking around curiously. I kept expecting him to get fussy because it was so far past his bedtime, but he remained calm and quiet all night long.

A young woman was there with her 1-year-old daughter and she kept commenting on how strong Noah’s neck was. She kept telling her daughter to look at the baby and she said that she wished her daughter was still as young as Noah.

A man named Doug came around the waiting room often and spoke with each family that was there. He asked if we needed anything and assured everyone that we’d be seen soon.

The waiting room cleared out almost entirely by the time we were seen. We’d settled into a set of chairs in a corner and held Noah so that he could watch one of the many TVs stationed about.

When we were called back we were simply taken to a private room where we ended up waiting some more. Noah fell asleep again and Robbie put in The Incredibles, which he found in a small stack of DVDs the hospital provided in the room to pass the time.

Thankfully I’d grabbed my breast pump before we left the house because we’d been so busy since the time I got home that I hadn’t had the chance to relieve myself. Robbie went to the garage and brought me the pump from the car. It occurred to me that it’d been several hours since we’d given Noah the Pedialyte and he hadn’t thrown up since, so we asked if I could try nursing him and we were told that was okay. I pumped to relieve myself a little bit and then I tried to feed Noah. He latched on immediately and ate like he normally does. I let him nurse for almost 15 minutes and pumped the rest.

A resident doctor came in and checked Noah out. She did all of the same things that the doctor at the Immediate Care had done earlier that evening. She said he seemed fine and that he probably just had a stomach virus, but she’d send the attending doctor in to do a final exam and hopefully get us discharged. By this point we were all exhausted and I felt incredibly foolish and defeated. I knew that I was the one responsible for putting us through this exhausting and unnecessary experience and I felt sick with guilt.

The attending doctor came by shortly and told us all of the same things that we’d heard throughout our entire ordeal. He said that dehydration wouldn’t become a concern until Noah didn’t keep fluid down for 24 hours. He talked to us for several minutes, though I can’t remember all that was said. I was holding Noah and felt a warmth on my lap. I figured he’d just peed on me, but when I checked I discovered that he’d had a major, yet silent blowout and it’d gotten all over my pants. The doctor told us we were free to go and said he’d get somebody to help us clean up as he practically ran out of the room. A nurse got me a pair of scrub pants while I cleaned Noah up.

Everybody that looked at Noah that night mentioned his congestion, so Robbie asked the nurse if they would suction Noah’s nose for us before we left. We suction it multiple times a day but just can’t seem to conquer it. He told the nurse several times that he didn’t want to be there to see it if the machine they used was going to be uncomfortable for Noah. The nurse assured him it wouldn’t be. They left to suction his nose while I changed pants.

While I was changing I heard a terrible scream outside the door, but it never occurred to me that it might be Noah because I’d never heard a sound like that from him before. Sure enough, Robbie was stone faced when he returned to the room. He said that he had to hold Noah down while they used the machine to suction him. Noah was calm at that point, but Robbie said that the  scream had come from him.

We gathered our things and left as quickly as we could. We got home around 2AM and thankfully Noah went right to sleep when we put him to bed. We let the dogs out and then Robbie and I went to bed too.

It was an exhausting and unnecessary experience, but I’m glad that Noah’s first trip to the ER was for something harmless instead of something major. He was such a great baby throughout the whole experience. He was always calm and never fussy. We really do have a great boy.

April 25, 2012
by Christine
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Weigh-In Wednesday

In the beginning of last year I started a weight loss Tumblr after discovering Tumblr’s “Fitblr” community. Like so many different forms of stimuli before them, the Fitblr community inspired me to be proactive about my own weight loss journey…or another one of my weight loss journeys, to be more accurate. I have enough incomplete weight loss journeys in my past to make Billy Blanks and Jillian Michaels hold each other and weep.

ANYWAY. The reason I mention my abandoned Fitblr is because I actually made progress during that particular weight loss journey. I lost 10+ pounds and I ran my first (and only) 5k. I also learned about a website called My Fitness Pal, which helped me track the nutritional information for everything that I ate and also helped track my weigh loss progress. Although I’m not in a place where I feel like I can find time to work out (I have 3 hours of personal time in the evenings and I use it to eat, do dishes & laundry, and take care of my baby), I do feel like I can try to manage what I eat.

My MFP profile can be found here and I’ve also included a widget on the sidebar of my blog. The Fitblr community would weigh themselves each Wednesday, a practice they dubbed “Weigh-in Wednesdays”. I’ll be doing that from now on to track my weight loss progress.

This morning I weighed in at 164.2 lbs. I’m already down 42lbs from the height of my pregnancy weight. Let’s see if I can not only return to my pre-pregnancy weight, but achieve my ultimate goal weight of 135 lbs.

April 18, 2012
by Christine
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I’m Gonna Talk About Lactating. Fair Warning.

The human body is amazing. When I’m pumping there are times that my milk doesn’t flow, so to get it going I’ll concentrate on thinking about my baby. I’ll think about his smile or his coo’s and sometimes I’ll even imagine what he looks like when I’m nursing him. Just thinking about my baby makes my milk flow. That’s amazing! Isn’t that a lot like using the force? Am I like a Jedi? (I love that Chrome’s built in spell check just capitalized Jedi, by the way.)

Next I’m going to try to use “the force” to convince my brain that salad tastes like donuts or something equally as delicious. Maybe then I’ll start craving them more.