Say It, Just Say It

Say It

I’ve been doing a lot of soul searching lately. I’m afraid that I’ve allowed myself to become a pawn instead of a player in life. Let me make it clear: there is no turmoil in my life. This is the kind of soul searching that is born from privilege. The privilege of being comfortable and content. A part of me feels ashamed to even admit it. I have lived a reserved life. I’ve always been a vanilla person. I’ve never {Read More}

The Munchies

Cheeseburger

I’ve been struggling with the munchies lately, and in a really bad way. At first I thought it was just really strong PMS. I never know what to expect from my body post-birth and post-weaning. Things don’t work like they used to. But PMS-time has come and gone, and my cravings are still here. Now I’m afraid I’m having a diet relapse — the sort of relapse I routinely had before my weight loss. I keep trying to tell myself {Read More}

I must be hormonal or something.

Makes You Happy

Featured Image Courtesy of Mindy-Fit. I’ve always been hyper-aware of how fragile and fleeting life is. Everybody knows that our lives can end at anytime, but most people don’t dwell on it. What’s the point? It’s going to happen one way or another. Just keep living life until it does. I have trouble doing that. I’m deeply affected anytime I hear about somebody dying, even if I didn’t know them. I can’t stop thinking about who the person was or {Read More}

Living with Anxiety

Anxiety

I’ve never been diagnosed with an anxiety disorder, but I live with anxiety. Right now I’m fighting off a feeling of suffocation and panic and an inexplicable urge to rush to Noah’s daycare and pick him up. To hold him tight. To spend all night holding him and interacting with him and thanking God for every breath he takes. I have anxious thoughts all day, every day. I’ve gotten good at keeping them at bay so I don’t get overwhelmed {Read More}